Day 45: Ever harder...

Tell me where I can pay the price.
I'd buy the days, the seconds of time
To build a bridge from here till then.
If I could shrink the time that lies between
There's nothing I wouldn't give to end this wait,
To return to that memory that fades too quick.
It seems I grab and it keeps slipping away.
A fog, a mist, a distant moment...
Which upon remembering
Makes every beat of this heart ache.

Day 60: Heavy

There are some days when the weight of sadness keeps me from getting out of bed.  And I can't count on anyone but myself to just get up.

Day 62: It's my birthday I can cry if I want to

It's actually my birthday.

I don't actually want to cry.

I don't actually want to celebrate it.

I do want to be alone.

The only people I really want to celebrate with aren't here.

On days like today I miss my family.

On days like today I miss my friends who are as close to me as family.

On days like today, and everyday, I miss my man.