Day 82: Why is it harder than before?

As, I mentioned in my last post, I've been feeling really disheartened by the bombings in Boston.  I started to wonder why I experienced this particular act of hatred so much more strongly than every other horrible thing that has happened in the world or is happening now....

I remember when 9/11 happened.  I was in high school.  Maybe I was insensitive, naive, cynical....but I didn't feel sad the way I do for what happened in Boston.

Maybe it's because there's no suspect....nobody for me to place my anger on....nobody to blame.  Maybe because the way it was done, how the bombs were created for maximum pain and destruction? Maybe it's because I have friends in Boston? Maybe it's because I'm here in Europe and I feel so helpless to aid those across the pond? I don't know for sure.

But somehow I think it's because for the first time in my life I'm thinking about having children of my own.  Maybe these things never affected me because well, it was just the world that I was living in....I guess everything does change when you have children....or want children in my case.  I guess this just isn't the type of world I would want to bring an innocent life into....

Perhaps I should just stop feeling helpless and start making the world a welcoming place for my future kids....question is:  "How can I do that by singing songs?"