Well, it's been an unusually long and short 50 days. When I arrived I was completly unsure of where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do...so I came up with the idea that I would just go to Europe, have a couple of lessons and see where it leads...truth is...IT JUST WON'T DO. You have to go out and get what you want.
I never thought myself naive when it came to my chosen profession and the difficulties I would face in pursuit of my dream...I suppose it comes from the security of supportive parents (thank you for everything), supportive friends (you mean more to me than you'll ever know) and a supportive environment (Ottawa is and will always be home)....however* these things do not prepare you for a slap of harsh reality that you're much further than you thought you were from your dream.
The most important thing I've learned here,--besides the gaps missing in my knowledge of vocalizing-- is the 'almost' limitless strength I possess. You really can't know how strong you need or can be until you are thus summoned my your circumstances.
Also of interest are the things I've learned to live without. The little things that seem trivial now that I've come to the end of this trip. I haven't used any hair products, I haven't blown out my hair, I used my straigtener twice...both times only because I had important appointments. I've gone without exfoliation for 50 days and I'm still presentable...and blasphemous as it sounds....the only pair of shoes I've needed weren't my gladiator heels....*however....my toner and my razor have not left my sight.
I've also gained an appreciation for the strangest things...the value of potatoes and pasta as a staple on a student budget, for example. The wonderful world of jazz and world music that I had previously never taken the time to truly appreciate. The vast spaciousness that is Canada. The easy-going friendly nature of Canadians...and why we have a reputation for it, among other things...
It's been a ride. And as always it's not really about where you end up....it's the journey there and the people you went with...that being said, thanks for reading, and I can't wait to see you all.
xoxo
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ps...blogging about my travels has really brought back my love of writing...so expect to hear more from me!!
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