i just found an un-mailed letter that i had written to my first bf...i think i was 15 or 16...it went something like this:
...i always expected a prince-charming to come along one day, and sweep me off my feet....that i'd be as happy as the princesses in all the fairy-tales...maybe this isn't what i had expected...i thought you were perfect and i couldn't find any flaws in you...up until today...then i realized even the most perfect guy is still a guy...and i don't think i'll ever find the perfect guy...cause no matter how great you are, you still have the ability to be immature. maybe i should just content myself with the way you are...cause asking for perfection is too much isn't it?..and if i were to break-up with you, just cause you weren't perfect enough, or not as ideal as the prince-charming i've always dreamed of it wouldn't be a very good reason would it?...
what i've learned?
it's never too much to ask for perfection...if i'm going to make an effort to be perfect why shouldn't i ask for it in return from someone else?...
agreeing to be someone's girlfriend because they make your heart beat fast isn't a good enough reason...agreeing to be someone's girlfriend because despite the imperfections you're still interested in taking the ride with them is....
falling in love happens to me all the time....either i'm a glutton for punishment or i'm the luckiest person in the world...
at 16, i wasn't ready for a relationship...at 22...neither was he...
at 24, i'm still not sure i'm the right kind of girl to be in a relationship...but i'm going to give it a go anyway because the ride seems like it's worth taking...and my idea of prince-charming has changed...
prince charming isn't tall, dark and handsome...prince charming doesn't sweep me off my feet...prince charming isn't perfect...prince charming is 5ft3, loves singing, dancing, loving and living and she's the only one who can make me truly happy...and hopefully i can be that person for the rest of my life....
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