::Ottawa international chamber music festival drama::

Amazing music ((time for trio))

Egotistical musicians. ((crazy drunk Hungarians))

Dissed violinist. ((almost fight))

Crybaby violinist ((mean texts))

Drama drama drama all at our very own chamberfest.....
((details to follow))

Sent from my iPod

:: more thoughts resulting from my 10 year purge ::o

sooo....i have been emptying my room of everything I haven't had the
nerve to touch for the last ten years. I'm a sentimentalist, a
romantic, a pack-rat and most of the time I like clutter just to keep
myself sane. But tonight, all that's left is a desk and four bare
walls. The walls revealed how as a little girl I put stick-on glow in
the dark stars everywhere. I noticed how they were all placed only as
high up on the walls as I could reach at that age. as I scraped off
every single star tonight I thought to myself how symbolic it was of
me having reached the goals I have set for myself as a little
girl....having a bf, finishing high school, finishing university...

Having removed almost everything from my room... I relaxed and laid
down staring at the ceiling in my parents room thinking about what's
next in my life...without a word, the lights were turned off and in
the darkness there were hundreds of little stick on glow in the dark
stars on the ceiling...I suppose the next place to go is up...wherever
that may be...

Sent from my iPod

::proud::

Just attended a fabulous concert performed by my good friends Mark and
Gillian...not sure why but I always enjoy myself a whole lot more when
I actually know the people performing personally. There's just so much
more personality that comes through in the performance...it makes me
wonder whether or not I'm really a good performer or if it's just
because I'm so different from my actual self when I am a character
that people say I'm good...Well, I guess the only way to find out
would be whether or not I get accepted to eno...oh wait...
Riiiiiight....They don't seem to know how to open and play mp3
attachments...

Sent from my iPod

Blogging from my iPod?!

Technology is too cool to be true...

Sent from my iPod

.:ex-boyfriends..looking for perfection...finding prince-charming:.

i just found an un-mailed letter that i had written to my first bf...i think i was 15 or 16...it went something like this:

...i always expected a prince-charming to come along one day, and sweep me off my feet....that i'd be as happy as the princesses in all the fairy-tales...maybe this isn't what i had expected...i thought you were perfect and i couldn't find any flaws in you...up until today...then i realized even the most perfect guy is still a guy...and i don't think i'll ever find the perfect guy...cause no matter how great you are, you still have the ability to be immature. maybe i should just content myself with the way you are...cause asking for perfection is too much isn't it?..and if i were to break-up with you, just cause you weren't perfect enough, or not as ideal as the prince-charming i've always dreamed of it wouldn't be a very good reason would it?...

what i've learned?

it's never too much to ask for perfection...if i'm going to make an effort to be perfect why shouldn't i ask for it in return from someone else?...

agreeing to be someone's girlfriend because they make your heart beat fast isn't a good enough reason...agreeing to be someone's girlfriend because despite the imperfections you're still interested in taking the ride with them is....

falling in love happens to me all the time....either i'm a glutton for punishment or i'm the luckiest person in the world...

at 16, i wasn't ready for a relationship...at 22...neither was he...

at 24, i'm still not sure i'm the right kind of girl to be in a relationship...but i'm going to give it a go anyway because the ride seems like it's worth taking...and my idea of prince-charming has changed...

prince charming isn't tall, dark and handsome...prince charming doesn't sweep me off my feet...prince charming isn't perfect...prince charming is 5ft3, loves singing, dancing, loving and living and she's the only one who can make me truly happy...and hopefully i can be that person for the rest of my life....